Change is Gonna Come...

Change is inevitable, good or bad.  We all are victims of choice and our decisions either determine whether we made a mistake or came out on top.  A year ago, I made the choice, the decision to move back closer to "home", to family.  I lived 2-3 hours away from a family that I grew up being extremely close to.  Well, people were definitely right in saying that the older you get, the farther you drift away from everything and everyone you used to know.  

I came back though, optimistic and excited to be back closer to my loved ones.  Well, a year later, I still feel just as alone and on my own as I did when I lived 3 hours away.  I am 29 years old, married with 2 children, 2 step children, and 1 more on the way and guess what?  I still haven't found my place on this earth.  I still feel like I'm taking the path that someone else has paved the way to.  My aunt tells me Happiness begins within, well maybe if I start living MY life for MYSELF I could start to experience some of that happiness.  As of right now, I'm just taking a number and waiting my turn on the "Do what's right, not what makes you happy" train.  Time for Change.

I've talked with my husband, and he too agreed that it was a mistake moving back "home".  He says "I told you how it was going to be and you were too stubborn to listen to me".  I finally agreed that my husband was right and I was wrong.  Nevertheless, we're young and it's still not too late to move ahead in our lives.  We will be discussing over the next several months of places to move to, somewhere with higher job opportunities and decent community to raise our children.  It's time to venture back into the great unknown.  My husband says he's happy being with me and wherever I go, he will go.  Well, I'm going to be searching for what makes me happy.  Living the life I want to live without the negativity from "family".  Somewhere I can make new friends and still get to see the old ones.  Somewhere in a land, far far away.  Well, maybe not that far, but far enough.  There's a whole world out there and I'm tired of being stuck in one of the worst parts of it.  

So my friends, changes is gonna come....